*Dark - Fallen Angel*

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

tears fell again.

cos was watching autumn concerto.. haha i guess i'm jus someone who easily cry.

y.. when he was the most impt person in my life.. and yet, i was someone to him, whom he can dump when he got sick of it.

yes, i still feel that i was the one being played. cos no answers or wadsoeva was given to me.

i only know, i was left hurt.. think he carn even be bothered if i were to die? haha.

but since i know he carn be bothered, y does my tears still fell for him?

why, do i still have to feel the imaginary immense pain in my chest?

if time is really the best medicine, i hope time will pass by quickly, to let the wound heal asap. or even better, a new love who will heal my wound...

but i guess deep wounds still leave a scar?

the pain, the hatred, yet the love.. all are so contradictory...

"what u are feeling is a paradox.." yea, but i guess this is the love-hate relationship that ppl say?

i shld have known, i shld have knew. "how much do i mean to u" he carn answer. talk abt woman's six sense, i couldn't really see my future with him.. though i hoped to have a future with him... signs have warned me.. yet i was ignorant... and land myself in this mess...

i'm still hurt...cos i know i still love him... but it was too much for me to see him.. cos hatred onli grows.

y?

he say meeting every sat was a burden, a pain... tht he obliged cos he know how impt it was meant to me... but yet.. i chose to meet him along with my friends, his friends... and not alone.. but as i see him now... he can actually meet them, jus for psp games. wow.. so i HAD been a burden afterall.

it's painful and torturous to hate someone... i wan to let go.. but i jus carn. looking at him... he tot i have recovered.. haha. but no. i still hate him to the core..

a great friendship. 無理です。it's not even near possible. with this hatred i have.

but i hate this ugly side of me as well.. so i'm trying to accept things...

but... i think i really need some help... if not.. i know i'll break down sooner or later...

but who can i turn to.. who can help me?

i really dunno..

助けてください。。。

sakura @ 1:08 AM.

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Name - Ven
Age - 十八歳+
BirthDate - 十二月九日
Schools - Punggol Pri, Nan Chiau High, Nanyang JC

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