Saturday, December 25, 2010
will i turn into a party animal?
hmm dun think so since i value my money more for smt else...
but yea... ytd is crazy, drank sapporo followed by Magarita.
but oh wells, lesson learnt once, so i wont get myself drunk since i know it's horrible.
but, all thanks to u that i'm drowning my sorrows on Christmas.
sakura @ 8:42 AM.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
all the anime i watch... ppl fight for the love they want...
yosuga no sora
hakuouki
but why not mine...
sakura @ 1:46 AM.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
as always...
y issit only me that's the one who is still hurting....
sakura @ 1:55 AM.
Monday, December 20, 2010
someone.. pls fill up this hole in me...
1 year ago was the day we got together.. but we never reach this mark....
y must this happen to me...
sakura @ 11:30 PM.
my heart is still aching...
issit really this hard to forget someone whom i love so deeply...
yes it it...
and it's horrible....
y did this have to happen to me....
sakura @ 2:46 AM.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
y is there still people who are so bastard?
now, i'm losing my control... and.. i carn seem to get it back easily...
shit.
fuck him for being such a bastard...
sakura @ 2:18 AM.
Monday, December 13, 2010
tbh.. talking abt it seems not to make me feel better.. but kinda worse...
or rather.. this whole thing... is really taking a toll on me...
maybe my friend is right.. y not jus break off the whole grp and reform one new one myself? wsince i did it once.. y not another one?
but i jus know.. it's never so easy... never...
but.. i really can no longer tolerate those 2... who onli think of themselves.. one who even use friendship to threaten me...
now i can onli hope things will get better....
sakura @ 7:08 PM.
as much as i want to.. i still carn get over it...
so much i've given... but this is wad i receive in the end? i realised it has all been a dream...
and how much was it had been true?
"when you believe"
this song was telling us to believe in miracles.. i wanted to, thought there wasn't any problems between us... but never did i know.. that the love was lost sometime ago?
now.. he can laugh, play, enjoy.. but me?
forced to recover from the pain in less than 48hrs.. to locked any feelings i have so as to battle my exams... but yet... still in extreme pain... it took all my control to maintain the face i'm facing everyone now...
kinda ironic.. cos i know we can never go back to the same as before... not when i'm hating so much now... ppl say cos u love that's y u feel the hate. yea.. it's true...
i put in my heart and soul in loving him... accepting wadeva faults he have... but.. what did i receive in the end?
a broken heart. a scar. a wound... that i dun have much time to attain to at times like this...
hormones made me exploded once... i gained back my control... but... how long more can i hold it like this?
i jus need a sorry, a sincere sorry from him... but.. it seems like to him it has been my fault... yea.. my fault for him to play with my feelngs.
sakura @ 4:42 AM.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
fuck.
like seriously?
y am i the only one in pain.
this is like so not fair.
asshole.
son of a bitch.
that's it.
sakura @ 2:33 AM.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
i said i'm alright. i said i'm fine... but as the night falls....
i'm jus another weakling...
it's really painful... it really hurts alot...
someone.... close this wound of mine....
sakura @ 11:20 PM.
i guess it's all over.
but though there is loss, i gained a lot of friends that i noe i can depend on...
so i guess it's still a gain for me. :)
though sad, but i really happy that i have these bunch of friends who are with me..
sakura @ 1:45 PM.
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
i'm hurting.. like nobody's business?
i want to hate him.. like a lot... a break up like now?
and running away instead of resolving... thinking he's doing the correct thing.. does he even consider my feelings? i doubt so..
unfair to me? this is unfair to me...
auntie, now u happy? breaking up a couple jus like that? now u happy?
now i dunno wad shld i do.... what shld i do?? i fear of being alone... cos once i'm alone, the tears jus carn stop falling...
sakura @ 4:18 PM.
